The Road Less Traveled

Episode 75 - Don't Tell My Girlfriend

All the insecurities, fears, self-doubt, self-hatred, and whatever negative thought you could have about yourself run through my mind like a bullet turned to shrapnel. I hate sharing those feelings with my girlfriend because in times like those it seems to hurt the most when someone is trying to be positive, tell you how much they mean to them, how important you are, the most important person in the world, and yet you only feel like you're sinking lower because you're unworthy of their love and kindness. That's what this experience has been like. But I'm still here. And I'm still trying. Love you babe. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

Episode 74 - Heart Attack

I had what I firmly believe was a mild heart attack a couple days ago. I could go on and on about regrets and feeling sorry for myself, etc., but the biggest thing will always be that I'm sorry for my actions that led to me drinking and driving back in 2016 and killing my victim. I don't regret prison, the loss of opportunities for myself, or how difficult and depressing life has become lately. I only regret the harm I caused. -db

Episode 73 - The News

Okay, okay, I'm sorry that it took a topical/political turn but I did try to relate it to my experience in jail/prison. I recorded this episode on time and meant to upload to keep my regularly scheduled programming... but as you might notice in episode 74, that didn't happen, and then things got worse. I'm hanging in there, but it's been more downs than ups lately. -db

Episode 72 - PF Changs

I've mentioned on multiple episodes that I work at a restaurant... Well, the secret is out apparently. I wanted to do this episode over a year ago when all these changes started trickling down from corporate but I was also trying to balance and maitain my anonymity with respect to the place that employs me. Please note that I overall have nothing against PF Changs/The Company as you will hopefully understand if you listen to the entire episode. The real problem was the previous CEO and whoever's brilliant idea it was to appoint him (I.E. the shareholders). They took a brand name that is recognized the world over and tried to squeeze every last penny from it with no regard to the people that actually run the restaurants. It's a shame. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

Episode 71 - Understanding

On this weeks episode I talk about Olympians, DUI's, the hero complex, and a need for patience and understanding that just doesn't seem to be there these days. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

Episode 70 - Music

This week's episode is dedicated to Music! (Yes, with a capital M.) It's funny, I think I only mention a couple random bands since the episode's conversation is mostly about how significant music was to me in jail/prison, its influence on me creatively and emotionally, etc. etc. so when I mention that I was having "a music day" I was listening to 70's/80's hits. The energy in songs from those decades is catchy. Music is like a snapshot of an era. Anyway, enjoy the episode and thanks as always for listening! -db

Episode 69 - Enneagram

I recorded this episode on Wednesday and then got sidetracked and forgot to upload it. I know, I'm operating at an average 4 or 5 for personality type 3's. Understand what I'm talking about? Don't feel bad if you don't, I barely do. This week's episode is dedicated to the Enneagram, otherwise known as the Riso Hudson personality test. There's way more to it than I had time to talk about in the episode, but at the end of the day it does help to know yourself better. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

Episode 68 - Mother's Day

Sorry that I've been absent the last couple weeks, been going through a touch of depression. Turns out Mother's Day isn't my favorite. Not an excuse though, just shedding light on my current state. Hanging in there though, so until next time, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db