The Road Less Traveled

Unfortunately I was hospitalized again for a panic attack that had my blood pressure through the roof and on the verge of an actual heart attack. Trying to remain positive and productive is hard when your own body is attacking itself. Then the financial aspect kicks in. Stressed that you don't have money? Go visit the hospital and get that bill.... then do it again. I never thought the challenges coming out of prison would be like this, but I'm still thankful to be alive in order to face each day. If you're going through your own challenges in life, just know that you aren't alone and to keep pushing. Hang in there. Hope to see you on the road less traveled. -db

This section of my impromptu and scattered biography covers ages 15 1/2 to 20. Yes, you read that correctly. I've been focused on preproduction for a short film that I wrote and want to direct, so I apologize that this one is a few days late and also ill prepared... even by audio diary standards. I do recognize within the episode that a lot of my coping skills to traumatic events is to either ignore them, distance myself, or insulate myself by throwing myself into a project or distraction. It's one of the main reasons I believe I have trauma and anxiety now that I'm trying to deal with. To be fair, I'm not saying how I handled things was wrong since I was a child and then a teenager, but it doesn't exactly resolve the issue by forgiving myself, which is the main point behind this podcast. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db

I had a brilliant time with a new weight loss program brought to me by stomach flu. I guess my body enjoys the erratic release schedule for these episodes. Today's episode is on recent events in my life (congrats to my friend getting married!) and also one of my favorites simply because I'm in a much better place now both literally and figuratively. I'm truly thankful to still be alive and br able to be kind, be joyful, and be compassionate to the people around me. After years of darkness I've tried to stay in the light. I'd say I mostly succeeding on this road called life. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful.  - db

I apologize in advance that the middle portion turns into politics, but this is more of a state of affairs episode in the sense that I was catching up with a friend from prison and we couldn't understand the direction of things. This podcast is entirely for me trying to understand my situation having been in prison and the long term mental and physical affects it's had on me. My friend and I caught up and it had me taking stock of things. Hope if you're out there and you're listening that you're doing well, whoever you may be. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

On this weeks episode of TRLT I explain why I've been on hiatus for a couple weeks (hint: it's actually a good thing this time). I also reminisce and explain why I'm so thankful for the life I've led and where I am today. I've been through some incredible tough times in my life, some of my own making, and it's been crazy to look back and think on. Thank you for sharing in that journey. - db

A continuation of my autobiography covering ages 10-16. They were pretty rough years unfortunately, and I've been dealing with a lot of that trauma ever since. It's hard to get closure on family deaths when you lose them at a young age. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db
[Note: The plug to my mic wasn't all the way in so it sounds like it gave the recording a hollow sound. I didn't realize until literally the very end. Doh.]

There will always be stories I miss, memories I forget, or moments that escape me... but hopefully I capture more than eludes me. Here are some of the stories I didn't share during the first part of my autobiography story arc. Have fun! As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

I'm finally getting around to the biography portion of this now-not-anonymous podcast. It started as an audio diary to help me cope and attempt to move forward after spending over five years in prison. I blacked out at home and woke up at the scene of an accident I had caused that claimed the life of an innocent person. Nothing said in this podcast/diary is an excuse or an attempt to garner sympathy. I'm still trying to this day to understand the difference between the good person that I was/am, with the person that did something so terrible. This was done entirely anonymously from the beginning up until now but has never been hidden. I've Googled myself. It's out there. My biggest hope is that if you're listening or happen to stumble upon this, there may be something in here that allows you to better yourself or avoid any mistakes I've made. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db
 
P.S. Sorry about the political views in the middle, but it does relate to how/where/by whom I was raised. Myrna was a beautiful and kind Canadian immigrant who I had the great fortune to be adopted by. Most parents get their kids by genetic lottery; a lucky few are chosen.