The Road Less Traveled

Episode 91 - Biography 5 - College Days

A little catch up in the beginning because my anxiety and heart are still out to get me, and then a return to form by going back and finishing up another portion of my scattered autobiography. It's all over the place guys, but I appreciate you still listening. Take care. - db

Episode 90 - No More November

November was one hell of a month and I'm not going to lie, I'm very glad it is over. I hope everyone had a great holiday period. Mine was mostly full of stress and minor hardships to be honest. I am incredibly proud to share with everyone that I did finish my writing goal/contest of typing 50,000 words for www.reedsy.com and will be able to submit my rough draft of a book for agent consideration. It wasn't even close to easy given all the unexpected challenges I faced. At a certain point though, it went from "I can do this" to "I will do this." Possibly a small distinction, but it is an incredibly important one. Thanks again for listening everyone. Tune in next week!

Episode 89 - Welcome Back (Panic! Attack)

Unfortunately I was hospitalized again for a panic attack that had my blood pressure through the roof and on the verge of an actual heart attack. Trying to remain positive and productive is hard when your own body is attacking itself. Then the financial aspect kicks in. Stressed that you don't have money? Go visit the hospital and get that bill.... then do it again. I never thought the challenges coming out of prison would be like this, but I'm still thankful to be alive in order to face each day. If you're going through your own challenges in life, just know that you aren't alone and to keep pushing. Hang in there. Hope to see you on the road less traveled. -db

Episode 88 - Biography Pt 3

This section of my impromptu and scattered biography covers ages 15 1/2 to 20. Yes, you read that correctly. I've been focused on preproduction for a short film that I wrote and want to direct, so I apologize that this one is a few days late and also ill prepared... even by audio diary standards. I do recognize within the episode that a lot of my coping skills to traumatic events is to either ignore them, distance myself, or insulate myself by throwing myself into a project or distraction. It's one of the main reasons I believe I have trauma and anxiety now that I'm trying to deal with. To be fair, I'm not saying how I handled things was wrong since I was a child and then a teenager, but it doesn't exactly resolve the issue by forgiving myself, which is the main point behind this podcast. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db

Episode 87 - The Wedding

I had a brilliant time with a new weight loss program brought to me by stomach flu. I guess my body enjoys the erratic release schedule for these episodes. Today's episode is on recent events in my life (congrats to my friend getting married!) and also one of my favorites simply because I'm in a much better place now both literally and figuratively. I'm truly thankful to still be alive and br able to be kind, be joyful, and be compassionate to the people around me. After years of darkness I've tried to stay in the light. I'd say I mostly succeeding on this road called life. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful.  - db

Episode 86 - Catch Up

I apologize in advance that the middle portion turns into politics, but this is more of a state of affairs episode in the sense that I was catching up with a friend from prison and we couldn't understand the direction of things. This podcast is entirely for me trying to understand my situation having been in prison and the long term mental and physical affects it's had on me. My friend and I caught up and it had me taking stock of things. Hope if you're out there and you're listening that you're doing well, whoever you may be. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

Episode 85 - Looking Back

On this weeks episode of TRLT I explain why I've been on hiatus for a couple weeks (hint: it's actually a good thing this time). I also reminisce and explain why I'm so thankful for the life I've led and where I am today. I've been through some incredible tough times in my life, some of my own making, and it's been crazy to look back and think on. Thank you for sharing in that journey. - db

Episode 84 - Biography Pt 2

A continuation of my autobiography covering ages 10-16. They were pretty rough years unfortunately, and I've been dealing with a lot of that trauma ever since. It's hard to get closure on family deaths when you lose them at a young age. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db
[Note: The plug to my mic wasn't all the way in so it sounds like it gave the recording a hollow sound. I didn't realize until literally the very end. Doh.]